It's as if I've never bothered looking at myself in the past few years. To be honest, I am angry with myself for reaching such a shameful state. I'm sweaty, tired and ill all the time, and it's all due to my weight.

I weigh 350 Lbs- this is the first time I've weighed myself in many months, and frankly I am disgusted. I am 127 Lbs overweight, and it's about bloody time I did something about it. I mean- 1/3 of my weight is excess to requirements! I'm lugging around 127 Lbs of useless material!

I've known for a while that I am obese, but there is a difference between knowing and actually understanding that my body is made up of 45 % fat.

I am so pissed off with myself, most of all.